Well there are a lot of things I want to say, a lot of craptacular events have beem happening more than wintacular events.

Well as many know, I have been very sick for about 2 weeks now, it sucks pure ASS. Nothing sucks more than an internal inflamation, ulcers and bleeding in your intestines, making me puke blood and also make me piss blood out my ass, yes, you heard correctly.
How this came to be, WELL it was an unfortunate timing of harsh food acids collecting, stress and continuious strain on my abdominal muscles that squeezed in and swelled my intestines which resulted into this piece of shit right now.

Now I feel like I'm fucking dying, my mom cried saying I look like a walking corpse at the moment, oh come on...well, This sickness has made me lose a lot of weight, just like, 10 pounds? not much at all, not much change. My back muscles are getting weaker though, it is so godamn painful when I move now.

Tomorow I am going to the medical centre for new medicine to treat this as an infection other than an inflamation and a series of ulcers/cuts

Now I am alone and with the blood seeping out of my body and my loss of appetite, I am WEAK, very weak, my muscles have shrunk too which make me go D:
I do not even have the energy to get "IT" up, and it has been a while...it is very frustrating, and note that I have been this was for almost a whole 2 weeks!!

Now for this little will part.
To richard, you spoiled ungrateful son of a bitch who doesnt clean of show respect to mom on the dinner table or for anyone for that matter, you screaming retard, you are a whore amongst the gay community...But you are my brother. I leave you the wii, for fuck sake do not update it EVER, it's hacked, if you update it then the copied games cant play.

To John I leave nothing, because you practically stole my ps3 you whiney bastard
To my mom I leave my new computer
To Sebastian, I leave my White boxing gloves, the Lion symbols may be faded on them, but the markings of months and months of training with you in advanced boxing will always show forever.
To Nikola I leave the focus pads
To barclay I leave my Karate hand pads and shin guards I have used in countless matches, also used in our sparring matches

To the women I hate and have fucked me over, I say "It was worth the night"

Now there is a very high chance I will not die or be admitted to the hospital at all, but good god, the pains and weakness this has brought me through, to see such a bloody red scene come from my mouth and into the sink, I sometimes cannot help but think that I am dying. But no, I am just training TOO HARD, to the point my organs cannot take it.

Even now I feel a horrid pain in my guts, like they are stretching out, cramping and trying to burst.